aLL is weLL ? ? ?

I've been typing my thoughts in Tamil, English & Malay since January. And as I have mentioned earlier it is not my intention to upset or to offend anyone here... This blog are merely some pages where i could key in my random thoughts to read it later. There are a bunch of people in the planet who likes to waste time in arguments, more than to share their thoughts. They like to argue and comment because they cannot do that in real life... so they do it at the forums, blogs, etc.. Something is better done or said in 'rojak' language... in real life kena ISA ma... even blog also kene su... no matter what, who da frikin care of what im trying to say here... perhaps im the only one reading... 

Im hoping any online inhabitant with similar interest as mine to befriend me a.s.a.p, as i get bored easily. Im a low profile cowboy... im simple like sandwich, sweet and nutricious like coffee... i speak tamil, malay and malaysian english. I dont like noise... only melodies, slow rock and country blues... i eat movies and drink songs, but i dont like to watch serials, dramas and tv shows. I dont follow politics but i read the newspapers. Alltogether, im different eventhough by theory we are all one.

Right now, im floating about unknown spheres. Been fighting an internal cold war for years. Between sainthood and robinhood, between 'tabiat' and 'patru'... and 'patrarupathu kadinamanathu!' (only if you could understand) But i wanted to end these things. Its really tiring to see my boat parked at these sephia mode - rusty ' bachelor port of life..' My mind is willing but my heart is weak. For now, my life is like a robot dreaming at daylight, and when im back in reality, i hear voices. I think it is a symptoms of loneliness.

My future plans? Settle down a.s.a.p, and I want to get in love with a girl like vimal and vega in 'pasanga' movie... innocent and comically realistic. I want to marry a girl 'nayagan' style... innocent and artistic according to my budget. I may sound arrogant and serious but i made my debut and won the comedian of the year award.

So, any down to earth senyoritas (red indian girls oso can) out there that hear voices like mine, kindly consider looking into mirror.. if its reflects actress orvasi or deva dharsini, if you are blur-blur at times, if you dont like luxury and fancy things but instead loved simple things, if you can lepak at kedai mamak 24 hours for no reasons, if you like listening to hindi, japanesse, and eskimo's songs eventhough you dont know the language, if you watched kadhal kottai movie more than 50 times, then you have won... but dono how, dono why, you are my sonia!

Ennada... asaai pattutiya?

It would be nice if one could be liberated and experience the electro-chemical cinemascope fields, inasmuch to understand any reasoning they could offer. Nostalgica... is it posible to leave a legacy like that after all these life not well lived? In the pursuit of happines, my mind's polluted by feelings of incapability, fear and guilt volunteerly brings sorrows of un-erasable past. Define vidhi and karma. Perhaps its written on the water?

I questioned myself of why He gave me these moments of silence... so often, a space for me to roam around freezed time and arrangement of thoughts. 'Gopurathaiye parpatale, enn valvum uyarumo?' You are what you ate, what you see? My thoughts wanders around the metallic steel tower, with the 'lutsinar' sun light effect. I am proud of you, a perfect mixture of 'kemodenan-zaman besi' and sephia mode nostalgia.

The scene of 'ayunan dedaun pokok,' sounds from 'vanthu pogum' vehicles and my mind fized at your 'sight.' A few thing missing, 'teh tarik and dunhill,' perhaps a lovely face on my shoulder, and a willingful ears, where I could share all my findings. Suddenly, I could hear Mugilan playing the romantic kannada song again. What perfect timing! Ever since I recommended, he's full of that song... and roys says, oru aanbale manasu oru aanbaleiku-thaan teriyum chief...

Mess with the hima...

(I dont mean to offend anyone by saying these imaginary, out of ignorance thoughts)

Lets make chaos in the himalayas. Let us chase out the Muni's, yogi's, swami's, avatar's with body and without body... all of them to be called out to change the world's current situation... they have been hiding long enough. Arrange self-realization campaign in a larger scale. Kempen jom 'mukthi' besar besaran.  

Inner peace, anyone?

Is it fun to read a life that is told in every which way? What makes a person to write every day, moments of his/her life? What makes them to share about things which interests them for the moment, that recounts any extraordinary events? Because, the next day, the whole thing doesnt matter anymore. Perhaps it is because no one is listening. I need a friend... The kind of a friend that cares about me, not the one who make me happy for the moment, but someone who can be .com.my

Perhaps, Sangaya is right. My greatest fear is that all this while, i lacked manliness. People say in the movies... dont confuse kindness with weakness. I proved to myself that life punishes your kindness. Its all about the money, power and connections. Kindness gave us shit and false happiness, and long term disappointments. This experiences taught me to cherish happiness more. I hope i could do everything more appropriately for any given situation.

I am thinking as hard as I could. I am thinking so hard that my mind gets weak and my thoughts seems to scatter. I become lazy that I slept the whole evening. I often re-think what I did at the end of the day to see if there is anyway I can improve.

'Hope' informs me that my future appears bright. However, it is the past I am trying to figure out. Re-storing dreams seems to be far from rational. Too much sacrifice. I'd like to preserve the current way of life but 'the past' keep on haunting me. It is extremely difficult to deal with it. Im gonna live assuming there's no god nor the devil and assume I got six months to go.

What am I up to? Tarak tau lagi! My life was like the curious case of benjamin button. As usual, I re-winded a bit, looking back, and felt as if I was in a foreign film without the subtitles. But you know, the thing is, I felt I am becoming younger every second, everyday.

It is one of the mysteries of our nature that a man can receive a 'thunderstroke' and 'seruppadi' like that and still live. ( hati jatuh longkang, angkat, cuci bersih & taruk balik..! ) I think maybe because I am a romantic, you know what i mean... and the naturally born sense of humour kept me breathing.

Lately, a range of disappointments, humiliation and heartaches were 'gone' with just 13 bugs. Its was a casual friday. Kungfu Panda 2, holy shit... What we need is 'inner peace'... we are all searching for it... as part of the human journey.  Breathe in... breathe out... fuhhh... inner peace...

Naan avargalai enniyathai pole, avargalum ennai enni irunthal, indru naanum nallavan thaan.

sOni eliksOn fOn & si pOet buJang LapOk...

Sila visayangalai ennal solla mudiyavillai... Paatta padelanna, paada teriyilla. Irunthalum oru cinna bit... Kallil aditcha athu kaiyum arum, sollil aditcha athu aarathu. Vatta nilavu athu mele poci katdi ilutha athu vaarathu...

Like it or not, i got to hold my horses for now, because things seems to be really in slow motion. At the moment, it's definitely best for me to smile politely, shake hands humbly and wait. This is the time when i could only say... lets face it, its called Vidhi. Hmm.... kaanuthal, anubavithal, ertrukolthal... oru periya perumoochi.... fussshhhh. Aatha karunai katduvalo, Vettaikarar ayya tan sollai kapathuvaro... tensen tensen tensen, ore tensenappa. Kadaisiyile ennai paithiyakarana alaiye vitrathingo...

Other than that..... I've got a new phone oady. This is important yo. This is the moment i've been waiting for. I am going to forget the rest of the world for some time. I dont care. I am about to plunge into the mantle of 'posthistoricmusiczernation'.

I know i deserve this after so long waiting in agony. Just forget about the circumstances. Consider the honor. Sony Ericksson W20i. Soni Elikson oh.... 4gb micro sd memory oh! Kannu pada poguthaiya sony founder're... Oru periya pusinikkava paathu phone'na nalla sutti podanum ayya. Ithu enn ariyamalo, tatperumaiyo illaingo, aanal, avan avan phone'na mulangara mathiri pakkurango!

En phone'ne mattum parkathingo, nan isaiyai evalavu maatikirennu unarungal. Ithu saraku kitte tonguvatarku illai. En unarvugalai eppadi solvathu...? Let me ask each of you... what happens when you put a electric guitar and the pullangulal ochestra together. Amazing things can happen when you put different instruments together. Tarai tappadai ellam poiye, ippo ellam high tech electronica music vantirichi... clear crystal sound pro multi dimensional spectrum bbe effects... Ungal kullapam ennaku puriyithu...

Every music director's - composer's teach each other. They communicate with each other. They came from different backgrounds, different ideas of what music is and they have different ways of expressing themselves. Imagine... individuality, cultures, genres, creativity, spirituality, vibrating together... When this combines together you come up with a colour no one could digest enough. Semma saapadungo...

I would like to admit a thing here... that nowadays I prefer to be forthright, i mean to be spontanious - direct forward. Even when this could lead to serious conflicts. This is because, i learned that being diplomatic makes things easier in the short term, but leads to problems in the long run. But saying what needs to be said will require serious thought and considerable courage!

So let me say it loud.

If you could imagine...

a lovely couple in a beautiful rural setting

the smell of earth after rain

that blend together a brief love affair

If you could believe...

the above said scenery caused you

a sudden revelation

the resolution of a mystery

a solution for all problems

then, you gotta call me...

because i need someone,

not just anyone,

and i know you need someone too

so, jom kahwin...

written by,

si pOet buJang LapOk

for futher details,

mail me at: chevaalai@hotmail.com

kali perungaya dappa!

AR Rahman wins oscar & said 'ellam pugallum iraivaneke'... Imagine one day Satyaraj sir wins oscar for best actor of the world. He enters the stage, bla bla bla, raised his hands up in the air & humbly says 'kali perungaya dappa,' followed by a 15 minutes standing ovation! There will be numerous fiction, synopsis & inquiries about the origin of kali perungaya dappa, whether it is just a song title or there's any other reason behind it.

Someone came up with the theory... that AR is a believer, he said ellam pugallum iraivaneke but Satyaraj sir is nastigan - a non believer, so he came up with kali perungaya dappa which means in total - nothing in the end or simply nothing in the dappa - the container...

The world goes wild, there will be various debates amongts world leaders, philosopers, theologist & religionist. Maestro Ilayaraaja sir becomes famous all over again for he's the composer of the song. Record breaking sales of the old piring hitam, audio video cassettes, cd's & dvd's. Musicians re-wrote the songs in many genre & sang kali perungaya dappa in their own slang. Not forgetting the mind blowing remixes too! Ka ka ka ka kali pe pe pe perungaya dap dap dap dappa!

Enough of that.. Imagine this...

The no 1 mountaineer of the world, nick named - Suppiah Montgomery or Pendekar Gunung Hima, refused to accept any sponsorship for his next most dangerous Mount Everest climb for world peace. Many big companies queues his door step with billions of dollars that for advertisement sake, he would raise their company flag on top of Mount Everest. But he showed them the way out. I say you GET OUT!

He's going there alone carrying with him some pure nitroglycerin explosive canisters. Why he carries along explosive substance was a mystery. Bla bla bla... fast-forward, now there he is... standin' at the top of Mount Everest, he is murmuring something for a while, raised his hands like stone cold steve austin and yells, Kali Perungaya Dappa!!!! 

The world goes wild again... 

24am Pulikesi Revolutionary Ideas ... will keep on updating ...

point form...

- every road side advertisement boards goes to besi buruk if there's no peruntukkan for road signs & road lights.

- everyone earn same salary, no etra talvu, equanimity in everything...

- every politicians should stay in army camp like soldiers, wear uniform, even during foreign tour stay in army base, they should not have own business, visit their family twice a year like real soldiers & earn same salary like ordinary people.

- scientists should stop nuclear, missile, bio-genetic cloning, bio-chemical reasearches, instead invest in ''bracking'' system, no need to change brakes anymore, bike brake lining, car brake disc, cycle brake lining, keta lembu manual brake..

- rapist, murderer & mullamari shall be classified as mental & to be sent to tg rambutan hills for public exhibition ...

- jadhi sandai among fruitcakes should be held in International stadium di khalayak ramai, winner & loser di sembur caani.

- vayadi rakkama's & tatperumai perumal's di lastic di mulut & disapu paldin dua belah pipi sebelum di-sevenni arai!  

eppadi emmathu raaja tantiram... !

will keep on updating new rules...

evvanda enna naiyinnu sonnathu?

Hepi petta dai...

Sariya 5.30ku, Ilayaraja, Ar.Rahman kudtani isaiyil, idiyodu sernta puyal katru, peiyum pisasum talaivirute ode, paambum kazhugum sandaiyai niruti kolapatille parke, kurangugal talaiyil kaivaitu kucal pode, muthalaigal tirumbi parkamel tannikul ode, tidirenna kua kua sattham. Ade ceh, ivan taana!

Fade to black. Next scene:

Engamma kaiyle siricikitte oru baby , sutrilum ore samiyarenge... and the monks says, 'poranthe kulaintaiku puthu perai kaathil othura matiri, ivan kathile appape 'yenda poranthennu' othi-kitte irunge.. ithuthan ivannathu tarage manthiram...' 'Itho, intha 3 inchi tanga aani-yai ivan talai uchi mandaiyil adichi-irakunge, ithuthan ivannathu kabala yantram!' 'Naangal varugirom... jeh jehng..'

Odanneh, my mother whispers... 'yenda porante, yenda porante, yenda porante.. Dumbfound muted baby then says: 'kuakhuye, ibibibre eyaae..?' ( meaning - apa benda yang ngkau merepek nih? )

Conclusion:  Hmm... 32 varusham ayirichi... innum yenthan poranthennu ennaku teriyavillaingo... 30 vayasile, 60 vayasu kullapangal! My thoughts are scattered over places. Somehow, I felt incomplete... for I missed that part of my soul the 'barbarians' chewd up... ambik ngkau!

Life holds many mysteries, birthday, deathday, japanese drama, "sittiiii, ammi ammi ammi mitithu-metti oli, kasthuri oh oh ohoho kasthuri" drama series, black & white movies, ultraman cartoon, wayang kulit kerbau, 80's, 90's, sephia, sophia, isabella, nostalgia, romantica, minnal, oviyam, kadhalan, and the list goes on... maaayai, ellam maaayai! But, there's some point in this system that I liked very much.

Pala kastangalilum, sila santhoshangal... zerrrrrrrrrzrlrp.... rewain jap, flashback... early this year 2011 is set for emotional outburts... semma outane nearangal... hmm... middle of the year, so far ok je. My target, is to settle down and stablize by Dec 2011... because next year by January 2012, I nak pindah planet. Sekadar swimming pool & pelbagai sungai kecik kecik boleh lah... brenang pakai tangan... tsunami size suming pool sori beb. 2012 is the end? I dont want to mandi and die at the same time...

But perhaps that would be nice.. rather than to die in the hands of peragut beg tangan wanita... kena pau & di-aruval, or die in the hands of people who are fighting over religious ideals, hating and hurting one another in the name of God, love and money... Politics, too much politics everywhere...

Mudiyathu, mudiyave mudiyathu... yaraiyum tiruteve mudiyathu... it's a planetary problem... born of having forgotten who we really are, and for what purpose we are on this earth... somorang nak kaya, nak fames, nak jadi hero, lupa diri, indera kayangan, gaya mutu keungulan, putera puteri rayal family, time mati dibakar dengan paper made laptop, kreta mecedis benz & rumah flat 5 tingkat...

ade ceh... hari ni aku berfday pun cita pasal nak mati...

dipLoma in crOnic depressiOn...

Nalvittaiyum nyanamum pera,

Uyarpatavigal adaiya,

Manakavalai tira,

Mazhaiyena varum tunbam paniyenna ninga,

Vairaikya nilai aieta,

Ilvazkaiyil inbam pera,

Anaitayum turakkum mananilai peravai...

Aisey man, sudah silap! I buat terbalik la. 'Anaitayum turakkum mananilai peravai!' No joke, serious. For any radical minded out there, perhaps you'd re-consider the so-called 'bliss' or truth in detachement... but dont lose hope, start anew from the beginning and you may be saved from cronic depression. The meaning of 'turavam' or non-attachement is deeper than any black holes.

I am the light that shines over all things. I am everything. From me all came forth, and to me all return. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me there. And behold, the kingdom of heaven is within you.

Meanwhile... life is waiting....    

Enna petha Aathaa...

Vizhi mudinen, vilitu-kondathu un ninaivu...

Is it aruL or just plain fear?

En, central nervous system'mane puruva matti'yil,

electric current'daga ni rushing'ga vanthathum,

nan appadiya shock aithen, aatha... (no joke, serious)

rilek rilek, Aadi ki oru vaati, ammavasai-ki oru vaati anathu en sitting's...

uuthi veicha petrol'le gappu gappu'ne thee pudicha mathiri vantha, eppadi?

papati rekkai high speed vegathile kathu-adicha eppadi irukum,

perumaiyum bayamum kalanthe 'nadegeling's...'   

eppadiyo, ithu oru inimaiyana santhippu thaan...

Canfuse of India...

Breaking news....

Engkittaye en phone'ne kaati kathai solrango. Kadupa aiyten yuvaranar. Comedikum oru alavundhu... Enna seiyirathu, I couldnt be the same person I used to be and the given situation wont persist me to... Im stuck between 'idhu namaku tevaiyillai' and 'ulagirku idhu ellam avasiya tevaigal' - list.. judged by ordinary people, ie: status, branded & exclusive, etc.

Naan munbe anthe ragasiya katavugalai tiranthu antaranga ulagai parthu vitten. Ondrum illathe suniya'thai anubavachi vitten. Arinthu otharku uriyavanai unarnthen, piragu naanum oru sara-seri manithan pole seithal athu ariyamai tane. Odti odtame irukayile, maya alaigalile sikki kankaanamal tolaintida pala muyarchigal... Naan oppukolgiren, semma setting thaan!

Idhu ellam ninaika mudiyavillai... Oru virattiyile, ellam pongada endru, perinba vasalai full time'ma tedi sella periya tadaigal ethumvum illai. 'This is canfuse of india'... Im confuse of my destiny. I wonder if i should seek professionals help to create a wishlist of my own. Of my own? Idhu baba'virku varamma, sabamma? Parpom anthe iswaranin lilaiyai. Suvadharma paripalana... Dot!

கலிகாலம் தலைவிரித்து ஆடுகின்றது. இங்கு கெட்ட மனிதர்களுக்கும் கெட்ட சிந்தனை உள்ளவர்களுக்கும்தான் இடமுண்டு....

Kali kaalam talai virithu adukindrathu... ingu ketta manitargalukkum ketta sinthanai ullavargalukkum-thaan idammundru...

Idhu ellam maayai endral, pinbu etharku athuvum-idhuvum-ethuvum, nadai-perukirathu? Idhu verum maayai endral, idhu ellam ondrum illai endral, naam anubavitha porulgalai ellam enge + etharku kondusellvathu? Reality vs Morality. Senses vs Nonsense! Polambings of India... Ade vidunga brother,  june ponaal july katre...

1 Love...

Vettaikaran ayya...

nalla iruppOm, nalla iruppOm, ellarOm nalla iruppOm...
and nO One cOuld understand this...

A successful communicatiOn includes mutually interesting connections between the speakers, or an 'unknown' connections of 'certain things' both the speakers had. For this to happen, those engaging in conversation must find a topic on which they both can relate to, in some sense.

Can thought exist separately from consciousness? You ask questions at some point of your life, the sort of questions people don't ask. Maybe life just can't be solved. And I just want to know if I'm crazy or not... if what I think is happening is actually happening. Or am I one of those people who are blind to what's going on? Who pretend not to see... And when a given situation no longer corresponds to the normal faculties of the original, the visitor suffers some sort of disconnected consciousness. Followed by non-human manifestations.

Life endlessly, repeating itself. Everything you pursue, you end up becoming disinterested in. The fact that you're good at everything you try, makes it worse. You could be a terrific Superman but you drifted away to be Cicakman and finnaly you turned out to be a postmen. You had an actual gift for understanding and you know that there will be a group of people to be arranged for you to achieve your goal. And they didn't even know they were being arranged.

You've spent your whole life thinking nobody is looking over you, and suddenly your subconscious is an open book. We are, for the first time, experiencing changes in natural reality by a force not our own.

Sometimes, you wonder how deeply you think about 'those' things, eventhough no one particularly impressed on how you felt. I know all of this is 'maya'... I am standing in a mist of dust... but you don’t get such quality entertainment and mind blowing performance anywhere... I am an observer and am not an pleasure oriented audience... but my feet were naturally drawn in this direction. Personally, I think it's God... at least, it fits my definition.

Vettaikaran ayya said.....


Nambinor-ellam sendru vittargal, unnai karka-vaitirupor ellam kuda maraintu vittargal... Nadanthavai ellam vittu vidu, ini nadake povathai parpommada... Unnai naan sirappaga vazha vaikiren, ovvondrai sirappaga amaitiduven... Oru nal miga sirappaga ni valntidum poluthu, appoluthu teriyum avargaluku ni yaar endru... Iruthi varaiyil varuvathu nam namam ondrutan, indru ni seiythavai ellam, naalai un namam olitidum.


Osai vidum munne, athai sirappage seithu mudikka mudinthal'tan osaiyidunum... Inthe varudatirkul nan unnidam osaiyittavai ellam sirappaga nadantidum, illaiyel, nan amarntirukkum ivvidathai vittu naan sendru vidukiren... saariya? Naan sonnavai ellam miga sirappagave nadaiperum, ithu uruthiyada... Unnaku nadanthe timaiyai ellam ninaitu kondiruntal athu timaiyaithan poiserum, nallavai ellam ninaitiru, 5 vaaram annaiyai tarisithu 'ellorom nandraga iruppom' endru avallidam osaiyittu vaa. Vetri namake.. sendru vaa.
  

Rimot kantrol, x bleh kontrol...

Question: hmm.. sollunge, enna vheLai seyaringe?

Answer: naan oru despatchinge... endru sonna udane, avar mugathile oru aru-arupane siripu.

Question: ohhhh, enna padicirikenge?

Answer: nithee nermai... singing 'manasekullil aapu vantecha, vantecha vantecha?'

Question: _______ ?? (our guy cabut, muka merah kehijauan)

Tuya tamizhile pulamai puriyum perArinnyare, matRavar kuraiyil gavanam selutuvathuvida, un kuraigalai araya vendummada. Un udalai arokyammage vaipathu poleve, un manathaiyum arokyammageve vaithiruke vendum. Seriyane santosam, sogam, mogam, veruppu, paruppu, aduppu, attherchi pola unarvugalai anubavithal vendum.

Nyaya aniya'yarthirku athibathiyana engkittaiye ni vaatam seivathu... ehmm, ithu nalatherku alle... Namme bittai namakittaye poderingele... Pesum vallamai oru 'nikmat'- iraivan padaipil oru maaperum athi'sayangalil ondragum. Ehvan oruvan tan naavai kaatiduvano avan.. tan maaNatai (mAnum) kaatiduvan. Piragu, puram pesuvathu patri sila kuripugal... Evidathil tamakku nyayam kidaikiratho, ange aruthalum mane amaithiyum peruvatale, silaridum tammaku erpattirundha siramangal'laiyum piralal anubavittha aniyaye tunbangalaiyum solvathu, puram illaingoO!

Namme, namme kulanthainge'kitte valkaiyile pala visayangal solli-kudukerom, anal... valkai endral enna enbathai namma kulainthe kitte thaan kattukenum! Manushane, manushana parkarathu evalo periya vishayam.. athu ennaku unarvu'purvamagave terigirathu, agave naan periya padipu'taan padichirikken... Sila per london selvargal, paris selvargal, yehn rombe, balik kampung kude selvargal... naan en idhyathai vittu selgiren...

tata bai bai...

i see dumb drivers...

Neil Armstrong was the 1st man on the moon. He went to a trip to the universe. Now i will take you to a trip to see the Jalan Ampang-Hulu Kelang road. Get ready for the ride. Mane urchagathirku: kadttipudi vaitiyam, abathu avasara'therku: kall adi vaitiyam (dikejar anjing), and finally, buttisali driver'galukku: saalai vazhai palam vaitiyam thaan!

Inime kall'lai katti kondu povatillai, 1 pai neraiya vazhai palatol'ai stanby'ya vetchikennum. Eppepo buttisali driver'gal arivu porvamane driving skill ellam kaatum pothu, pacakennu visitu picikennum. Beware drivers, vazhai pala tol awaiting you. Oru idatile olunga otrungila? Erkeneve 1008 kuliyum bumper'rumma irukku, tevai-yillathe traffic light, kolapadiyane sign boards or no sign board at all, ithile ninga vere yanda comedy panndringe? Vaanti varuthu. Manesan konjum nal vazha ninaikirathu tappa? Sollunge, nan solrathu tappa, en tangame...

hanpon poyinthi.. poye poyinthi....

7.15am... selamat pagi Aathaa dan Matura Veeran sar... saya berada di dalam kawasan liputan anda, saya minta maaf sekiranya terinjum teriyamalum kesilapan berlaku... diharap saya akan dijaga dengan sebaiknya.

Bahawasanya sejak ulagam tondriya mudhal, indru present varaikum, pala kodi vagai kejadian telah berlaku, sedang berlaku dan akan berlaku. Setiap kejadian ini perlu penterjermahan yand tepat, gambaran yang jelas dan perlu dikategeraiskan dengan pengexplenan yang sewajarnya.

Whether its Bencana alam or Ezhuthi veika-patta vidhi, 'settings' from HQ. Terpulang kepada pembaca blog sekalian untuk mengkatogarikan kejadian kejadian seperti... kite dikejar anjing, bini dilarikan orang, kete dihempap pokok, pokok dihempap kete dan sebagainya....

Actually, rungsingan ini ditaja oleh kehilangan hanpon! Hanpon dikebas penyangak malam... Masa tu aku tengah tidur, hanpon tu kat sebelah aku je. Nak rembat hanpon tu pun, sim card pulang balik lah, letak atas meja ke... Total contact lost brader... lagi pun tak payah lah aku nak ke Digi Centre.. sib bek Jeya ada...

Nasihat kepada kawan kawan, kunci lah pintu bilik korang, pakai mangga dan durian yang besar. Lagi safe kalau hanpon tu di jampi. Tak mungkin berani pencuri nak langkah jasad korang semata mata nak curi hanpon time korang tidur.

Aku dah ucap takziah di atas kepergian hanpon tu dan reda di atas apa yang berlaku... setiap kejadian ada maksud disebaliknya. Tapi sedikit terkilan jugak di hati, hanpon tu lah jadi walkman aku yang canggih.  Kejadian ini tidak boleh dikategorikan kehilangan harte bende, malapetaka, bencana alam saje. Berat... bagaikan kehilangan penawar penyakit... kini telingaku tidak boleh menghindari pencemaran bunyi manusia manusia korporat...

I cant stop'em from babbling all kind of bull shit. Dulu, just plug in earphone kiri kanan and lose myself from the entire outer world. I lived in my own electric field... an inner world of plutonium imaginations. I would be lost in some kind of a scientific peace.

Dedicating this song for our thief brother...

Iravin madiyil urangum poluthu

punaipol oruvan...

en mana vedhanai yar arivar?

unmaiyai sonnaal yar unarvar?

ulle oruvan urangu-gindrane

veliyil oruvan ulavu-gindrane

ellam therindhum umaiyai pole

irukkindrane en thalaivan....

Imagine this... anthe kalavani mattum kayile matdhunan endral, T.R irukira room'le vechi pudti, oru 5 hour'ruku, avar sorpolivai kerkattum. Veliye vantha udane, Arjun sir, karate style'le oru peiy arai, kannatile ennadi kaiyum'mene varu-vatirkul, Vadivukarasi'yum, Gandhimati'yum oru 2 hour-ruku left and right patche pathceya ketkenum... Kaathile rattatodhu varumpodhu, tidir enna Basha bai vetcaru oru penumbuk tiang lampu, athen piragu vidiya kalaiyil 6 maniki kaan-mulitthu parkum poluthu, antha parkama vantha M.kumaran son of mahaletcumi udtaru oru street fighter backflip kick.. matter over!

Kalau korang nak buat forin kol cakap je lah... tak payah curi hanpon sekali. Pahal pulak dengan korang ni.. sakit otak ke? Aku repot kat FBI kang baru tau... ceh... vade poche...

Eduthenna pathikittu eriyum.. Appothan ennapatthi unakku puriyum...

Ennada valkai ithu, netru iruntavar indru illai. Orunal ithu enakum nadakum. Adutha varushamo, mathamo, adutha nimasamo, yaruku teriyum. Savei tedi selvoruku kadtaiya-paduthi vidhi valavaikirathu. Vazha ninaiporku savvu alaithu selkirathu. En udalodu sernthu manamum sorntiruntathu.... tukkam edti edti partathu, konjum neram songs... aasaiyal unnai allavendum, anbinal unnai kollavendum serum nal idhuthaan... la la la la la, nagumo oh sugamo... sikubukke sikubukku raiyileee.. zzz..

Meendum kosu! aiyo.... tungavum mudiyile, mulicherikevum mudiyile... indraiku enakennu yarume ilaye. Petci tunaiki oru alavathu irukangala inge. Sutrilum krappu talaiya iruku. Sikiram ayat panni, oru figurai tuki life'le settle laviya... athai vittudu, ilakiyam, kalanjiyam, panjamirtam'mennu pesikiturikiye. Atavuthu vanthu, mantira'talle, mango viluvatillai. Atukennu oru kalam neram vanta, paluthu kile tannale vilum maanganni! Parpoom... zzz...

I open my eyes and saw a palaeolithic man standing beside me. He looks alike Steve Martin. Ore pogai mootham..

Soul: Who are you?

Yama: Me casa de señor Yama-Dharma-Rajan! Ha ha ha.. Dont you afraid of me, dont you afraid of death!

Soul: Why are you here?

Yama: Best jobs are the ones that nobody knows that you were even there. Answer my question, dont you afraid of death?

Soul: I used to.. but livin' transformer part 15.. is a near death experience... moreover, mom has promised: 'have no fear, Jakkama is here...!'

Yama: puzzling explanations...

Soul: Yama, i died already. Moochai mattume svatithu kondirukkiren, aanal valavillai. My arivu and ninaivu is beyond the meaning of ninaivu and arivu... my intelect is incomprehensible and beyond the meaning of incomprehensible and intelect. The way i define things have no definition. Yama, what is death, anyway? Meendum kaan vizhike-mudiyathe oru mayakka nilai. Naan savamal sagindren. En nilaiyai ninanthu parka mudiyavillai, because im death by livin'.

Yama: What about your tuyaram and the people around you?

Soul: People standing outside, will check their time oftenly, murmuring, how long we have to wait here.. and for how many days. 'Sikkirom poyi seyRranna paru.. sangai uthunum'ma, 4 kattaiyile podtu erichomma'ne illame... summa izhu-thukkithea irukanne! They would be mad, i havent died yet.

Yama: What about your wife then?

Soul: I dont have one. Say if i have a loving wife.. but for how many days she will be...? People forgets one day. Alaiyil adum kayitham, athilum enna kayivam, nilai illathe manithargal, avarkum enna uravugal?

Yama: How do u know these things?

Soul: Kannadasan.

Yama: Ngkau nak mampus pun, ada time buat lawak lah! No, i meant, how you realise this?

Soul: Yama, you tangkap uyir saje... pasal hidup, kau takan mengerti. Here on earth, we've got BMW 3.0 Vtec and many barefooted kids. Kanavugalile vaalum manitargal kodi palar undu, and on the other hand, matravar valvai vaalum sila braindamundos'um undu!

Plenty of khorai kandepudikkum mare-kalendravargal's too! Here, we have secret recipe, papa rich and tepi lorong garbage bins cafe. Here, we have buddhas, paramatmas, rishis... and on the other hands, we've got orang minyak, zinta bai and pattasu balu's.

Here, we have inimaiyane mell-isai songs, maestro's, isai puyal's and on the other hand's we have sound of abuse, backstabin' mix, kathara kathara katharal's. Here on earth, so many un-natural things are called nature (iyarkai) Here on earth, perhaps one day, we may have ondarai kodi birth rate per minute, but on the other hands, we've got people like you Yama, robbin' peoples life's not lived. Here on earth, we've got kannuku teriyathe astonishing arputangal, and on the other hand, we've got kaanethire nadaiperum ___ kodurangal.

Here, they lived under the same sun, they breathe the same air, then they curse each other's differences. They call themselves whites, blacks, yellows, high class, low class, no ticket- roof top train classes. The untouchables.. Here on earth, they live for the same purpose, they strive for the same happiness, they speak the same shit, but those 'hired to fix problems become problems themselves.' Here, we've got indian chicks behaves like velakarichee babes...

Yama: How do you know all these, you 'short circuit' or sage, or you have moolam?

Soul: No, i was born on the other side and my favourite food is cendol... Yama, enough of questioning me.. tell me the truth, you are from pluto isnt it?

Yama: err... err... Maybe...

Soul: Why are you wearing kura-kura?

Yama: Its a gift. When i caught bruce lee.. it was a tough fight. Fist of the dragon! But i used 'saathai' and won! He gave it to me as a gift.

Soul: Oic. where is gupta?

Yama: Poor gupta, he lost brahma's protocol's again... i heard he's stuck at punjab.

Soul: Cho sad...

Yama's pick up log: 

A very rare case indeed... disappointment, always has been, always will be. Case requires professional perfection and total detachment. Refer back to HQ.

fiLe sharing.. anyOne?

Legend: file sharing- life sharing... File sharing is the practice of distributing or providing access to stored information. It may be implemented through a variety of ways. Users can use software that connects in to a network to search for shared files. Files of interest can then be downloaded directly from the user on the network. Yaarukaudhu puriyidhaa?

konjum serious'sa pesuvom...

perhaps people define me straight forward... sometimes sentimental... all this while ive been looking for  meanings... then to get rid of those meanings and to seek a certain truth, a singularity of everything... but now everything seems useless, the only logical needs is to create an atmosphere of comfort and safety, tevai illathe tedalgalil mulgi-viluvatai-vida, isaiyai rasirthukonde, ondrane nanbargaludan amaithiyei teduvathe mel. Its beyond question and meaning... perhaps what i need is but to fall... to fall in love... so far ive acomplished a few 'free fallings'...but falling in love?

Its been hurt but many a times... not sure if it can hold another blow... but really, life goes on man... no matter what... and i will point to my scars constantly, and remind myself they are what wake me up and renew my desire to live... but pride is mis-directing me again and i comforts myself by calling it 'maturity.' 

At the end, i throw all the thoughts away and began the search for the streets lights or perhaps jammin' in the nearby mamak stall. I still dont get it... why do we people, define success in financial terms? Eat this... an exploration and celebration of freedom to live!   

seri seri, namme kathaiku varuvom... file sharing, anyone?

konjum rilek'a pesuvome...

i don’t believe that we can re-live our past, but i think we can only choose to live it differently. I have done some mistakes too. This is my chance to undo that mistakes and i need someone to help me with it. Perhaps, i could help anyone in the same situation because i’ve been there and i know exactly how it feels.

Something about me... i am a typical guy, half traditional and half modern… i have no leadership skills, honestly, i don’t know what are my best skills are, even though i got plenty of skills... I am very childish at times and people easily fool me around! I am a bit knowledgeable too, am also a bit matured. I speak broken English… Malaysian English… got no experience in most of the things… in what people calls common things…

Im an Orphan. No followers behind me, no hidden ideas, no big bank account and all i have is this idea called ‘file sharing.’

Legend: in common usage, only a child (or the young of an animal) who has lost both parents is called an Orphan. The young will be called orphan when the mother dies regardless of the condition of her child.

After reading this…one might think this is totally a joke, but if this matters something’s to you… kindly reply…. i am not offering myself as an slave… the world i live in before were not as i dreamed and hoped…. there’s so much of love and money is wasted… there’s so much of hatred in the world instead of innocence and love…

Long-long ago, nobody can tell how long ago… i believed if i do good, it will give me the satisfaction and happiness. I’ve tried to live by the values…. Unfortunately, nowadays, people steps on another to win…. I don’t understand why they are being so selfish. I don’t believe in the so called ‘survival of the fittest’ thing…. it applies only to the animals… I've watched my life bloom like a flower and blackened to what it is today. And today everybody is excited about anything which is new, so this is my offer…

So, how about sharing over life? Perhaps, i can learn more from you and along the way we will see if we can do something about our life. I know maybe one of you have a very long sad story too. Let us see if the magic touch of goodness could heal our hearts this time. Even though i may sound crazy, mentally imbalance or whatever you wanna named it…but in my mind, i still think im a 6 year old kid, so no worries about you being harassed by me. Please don’t mind my babbling… im just worried that its hard to get the message im trying to say out of my mind..

If you couldn’t understand any of this…. maybe you don’t know what loneliness is, or what sincerity really is, but trust me, life holds many mysteries.

Legend: Sincerity is the virtue of one who speaks and acts truly about his or her own feelings, thoughts, and desires...

ok ok.. konje neram gala gala nu siripomma..

super fast pendekaR

I think im a super fast pendekar... im able to handle any dangerous situation by just using a single pencil... Imagine screaming out loud the 'Jaws' background music... "peh pehm, peh pehm, peh pehm, peh pehm", with a sharp pencil in your hand.. sure the 'enemy' will run away... He might have lost the mental contest even before the actual 'battle' started. Pencil and anything sharp can be a weapon. I always keep a pen in my pocket, in case I meet an interesting babe, you know, tel. no and stuff. hehehe.

But in some cases, pencils do have its limitations. Imagine you are being chased by a group of dogs... here, what could have been saved you, is... the ultimate all time weapon- discovered & used by our fore-fathers for centuries... yeah.. we need stones, more stones!  If you are alone, and you are riding through housing areas or lonely streets, behold! you got to fill your bike's basket with stones... smart dogs may have been hiding below cars, and at any time, when you are not aware, shit happens! gua pernah kena beb, dikejar berkilo kilo meter...  :(

it was a good fight... rilek bro... kite kawe ya.

sorry guys, i could'nt elobrate more on this... i dont want to be assassinated for my controversial ideas.

wait for the updates...

internet slow..

diabLO diabLa....

Vanakam, en visiri'gala... ennudaiya karutukalai share pannikilane ninga'ellam sonnatale, nan inta page'yai publish panniten.. The following is... muluka muluka my personal beliefs and my personal thoughts... Idhu kudumpatile valnthu kondiruporkum, rombaiyum vezhi ulagam anubavam illa'tavargalukum sariyage puriyathu, taniyageve valnthu, pala vidyasamane 'character' kude palagi varuvathilum, valkaiyil kidaithe specialana padippu idhu..

Endraiki ninga rombe gavanama, orutarai-yum mulusa nambame, ivargal-ellam nambalai emmartri viduvargal endru ninaithu, avargalidam poli-yageve palagumpothu... appothan veipan aapu! Ithu pale visayangalukkum porunthum...

Just go with the flow, rombe alti'kame valenum. Life will find it ways. Have any of you listen to 'adi gomatha-senthamizh pattu' song before? 'Aaratamn odhutenthan valkai', endru oru vari varum.. Ethir parpethai apadiye mayle podtutha, senang crita. Kadamaiyai sei palanai ange ethirparkathe. Nalu-per kude palagu, valkai taraittai matre muyarchigal sei, nambikai vai, ni unmaiyage iru, piragu matravange unmaiya irukenumne ethirparpai mayle podtevidu. Unmai porulage irukenum'ne solluvanga. Oru petchile unmai, oru seyalile unmai. Ennam, sol, seyal'ne summava sonnange...

Manishan'neku ellame teriyum, aanal ethai pesakudathu'ne teriyuma? Ethai seyyakudathu'ne teriyuma? Ethai sinttikka kudathu'ne teriyuma? Enge nirka kudathu, etharku avasara-pade kudathu'ne teriyuma? Onnu'laiye nindru-vittal, engeyum poga-muddiyatu, ellam edarthirkum ponal, yenge venallum nirkallam. Sila peru, pesuvanga pesuvanga, tanaku ellam terinja-mathiri pesikonde irrupange. Avange pesuvathai nippatti, enna pesurange'ne konjum neram sinttithu, pesunathu ellam seriya'ne tan'nen tane ketkenum.

Pesunathu unmaiyaga've irukettume, allathu nyaya-manetave irukettum, aanal, silarydam adhai pesulama, pesuvatinal enna agum, ketpavargal mane nilai enna? Semua orang nak jadi hero... Ellorume, eppotume, oru tat'perumaikage nalle peyarai vange vennum'ne kadumaiya olaikirange... Atherku pale-perei kedtavarage-akkerango! Avan ipaditan'nu, ni oru mudivuku vanthepotu, naalai avan etthanai nanmai senjalum unaku payan illai.

Nalu-per parkere matiri, nalu-per matikira matiri valnum'ne sollrange... Nal-per etarku unnai matirkanum? Un padippai parta? Un velaiyai partha? Unnidam irukkum panetthai partha, Un car, Un udai, Un selvakkai partha? Aanal, yaravthu ivan oru nalla guna'mullavar, enna matikirangala? Ivarum oru manishan'tane, endru matikirangala? Manitaneyam illathepothu ni kaanal-nir pondre unmai ilathe matirppai pettru enna seyyapokirai?

Ellam veliyethan valrange, ullai valzha'matendrange. Ellam oru karpanai ulagil valrange... Edhu nirantaram illaiyo adhai thedi odurange, edhu nirantaramo adhaipatri yosika-kude madtrange. Malai polhutheen mayakkathile naan kanavu kanden tozhi!

3 vella soru'rku ulaikalam, un kudumba kadamaiku ulaikalam, mattre tinasari, matantira tevaiku ulaikalam, aanal un adamparatirku ni ulaikanuma? Indhe ulagil enn-manitha inathai serntavargalum, ella uyirinangalum unavukum, urimaikum padugire kastum, andrade potuvane tevaigalkude illamal kastepadurange, sila per mane-noi, udal-noiyudan irukirange, ettanaiyo peyargal anbukkum, pasatirkum yengi kondirukiralgal, idhai ellam unarnthe ni, periya periya kargalum (car), veedugalum, adampara santhosangalai anubavikanum'ne asaipadukirai. Piragu idhai vaikusamal perumaiyudan solgirai.. Santosa paduvathai vendam enna solvatarku illai. Define santhosam. Takyah jadi fakir, guna akal budi kau dan fikir... ille'na, arasa'maratadi poove veiyi...

'Ivar oru paitiyakaran'-endru makkalal nirnayakapatte oruvar, ennidam sonnathu en ninaivil innum irukirathu... Avar ennidam sonnathu... "Basicaly, people are hypocyte, be careful with everyone. Dont hurt yourself." Ippo yaarai paitiyam'ne solrathu?

Karma'tai kalika intha pirapai eduthu vantirukum, arivai valarkamel, nam ariyamaiyilum anava timirilum innum konjum karmatai serka vendam. Banthe pasam nesam mosam, ellam verum vesham, natpu mattume thendralai veesum, unnidam peesum.. Cantik! Puthiya palamoli 3001.

KaLi Aatha & BajO

மன்னிக்கணும்.... māf kījiye  ज़रा सुनिये!.... Me excusa (Latin)... All characters appearing in this work are fictious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead is purely coincidental...

Inthe mannil irunthu oru innocent, kalapadam illate, adayalangal illate inthe kadaisi jeevatmavai (the last soul of the earth) kaRpate vendume endru enni, anthe savumedtiLiruntu, vikramatiten oru kaiyil vaLaiyum maru kaiyil anthe patchelam kulanthaiyai turkkikondu odukiran... en uyirai koduttavathu karpate vendum, battle againts terror, bagai neraka, api membara, mayat, syaitan, meronta ronta mencari kemautan, vikramatiten tentang habis habisan...

TidirRena oru koduramane sattatudan, amma manniLirunthu rudra uruva-tudan tondri, buthae agoralgalai vEthai adinal, cincang, dasyat, ngeri, mother of terrible is here have no fear... "nan irukenda umaku," uttamiyin janji, slow-motion, percikan darah di muka, still in the battle, awestruck, nafas teruncap-uncap, then eye to eye, amma blessing....

piragu vaaniLirunthu oru kural..... "aMma-ve erungitange, nam iruke bayamen, Jai Sri Ram, Jai Sri Ram".... manatuimai-kum veeratirkum arasan bajO, agni nerupoliyai irangi, rakcasa uruva kalgalai bumiyil vaithu fightai tuvarkinar... blessing blessing.... maasatra-jothiyage inainthu maraintatum, the end... and syaitan said: baik baik jalan ye...