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The meaning Of chevaaLai...

Chevaalai : Musa acuminata

A rare red banana tree, also known as Red Dacca bananas. Its scientific designation is Musa acuminata.

Chevaalai : Innocence

This is a personal belief with no regards of the readers discretion...

Chevaalai ~ a youthful yellowish green banana leaf... representing a mixture of innocence, purity and maturity. The world we live in is driven by money and greed. And greed can be a wicked thing. It can turn hearts black.

Life's journey will bring you to a hidden realisation. Those realisation happened within me when I am very young. I used to think of it as abnormal. But some insights in solving the core of delusions leads me to metaphysics / astronomy / parapsychology and post-modern-history which resulted in the awakening of the 'child within'.

This is not the kind of innocence when you were ready to believe a world of magic where gods lived, birds spoke and the good always won in the end... Innocence, is not being soft, one needs to be couragious enough to live a life of innocence. I risked certain things for the rights of my innocence. And in the end, what are the purpose of our existence? To evolve unto innocence...

No matter what happens, I still have my heart, I still have my songs... to be cont....

Kalki's offer...

Legend :

Kalki - The tenth and final Maha Avatar (great incarnation) of 'Vishnu' who will 'bring to an end' the present age of darkness and destruction known as Kali Yuga. He will establish a new era based on truth, righteousness, humanism and goodness, called Satya Yuga.

Imam Mahdi - Dalam ajaran Islam, Imam Mahdi ialah seorang Muslim berusia muda yang akan dipilih oleh Allah S.W.T. untuk menghancurkan semua kezaliman dan menegakkan keadilan di muka bumi sebelum datangnya hari kiamat.

The Four Horsemen - Described in the last book of the New Testament of the Bible, called the Book of Revelation of Jesus Christ to Saint John the Evagelist. The Four Horsemen are to set a divine apocalypse upon the world as harbingers of the Last Judgement.

Kalki's offer...

Imagine at the end of kali yuga, Kalki showed up with an interesting offer.  He says, "I will withdraw all evil things in the world -  ignorance, kekejaman, no hatred, no wars, no deseases, no volcano's, earthquakes, tornado's and tsunami's. No hell, no heaven (for the believers.) I bestow upon you earth people, only happiness and tranquillity, with one condition... suggest me another type of evil and destruction for life." What will be on your mind?

Life is temporary. The world is temporary. Everything is temporary. Good and bad are great crimes of our civilization, and both, temporary. These temporary features, only motivates us to be rich. For those less familiar with the secrets of life, they like to abuse and punish time and circumstances.

Do you ever felt, evolution is boring at maximum level? People pretend to know all the knowledge. They knew all sort of things, forgotting the knowledge of all knowledge is 'That Experience.'

I left 'That Experience' in search of meanings and finally I 'was' here. Things are pretty much slower here. I've realised, that if I want to approach the divine, over here the atmosphere is not suitable, because these environment is unpredictable. I dont want to grow here. I never and dont want to plan the future. For me ' all ' that is experienced is, unspeakable, its only could be transformed to another experience.

A future of honesty and understanding of the self is where I want to be.

I am not the mind, nor the body, not the ego. I am a kind of a reactor of cold and heat..  'I' am a chain of reactions. Then what am I? I am a resposive-chemical-energy software. But, I liked to record things, even if its kinda empty, but it still has a personal meaning. I like to taste words and think about its meanings.. words that stuck in my head ever since I've start recording.  Peka, beku, lebur, abstrak, surreal, nafsu, sad, neutral, lukisan, imagination, astonishing, manifestations, justice, prejudis, matahari, 'mengemberariar'.... coffee, dunhill & pesta.

I've been studying people and their life. Those who've experienced 'That Experience' walk the earth out. They abandon the 'pursuit' and start soul searching... the truth, the real happiness. But some ordinaries chose the easy way out. Some turn into a self-hating bumb, or maybe gay or lesbos, because they believe that at the end of the day what they need is a combination of fulfilling needs/desire and to secure a companionship.

Imagine I propose to my rich fren, 'ennai rendavathu pondattiya ethukiviya? - let me be your second wife)' Where everything is taken care of? Even if this is just an imaginary, I still feel like vomiting!

'Naan oru nandrikettavan.' I can have these luxuries, witness the killings and experience spirituality while still being a carnivore. What am I to do with it? I can only send my thoughts to the unknown force. To the said cosmic consciousness. That im not happy about what is happening? Who am I to care? That's another question.

Perhaps He is listening? Kalki is near? Salah jalan? Stranded somewhere? How would the said 'The End' will take place? How they plan to do it? Self destruct?

Free thinking is a life long sticky substance. The greatest message I've learned so far, 'heartquakes' is worst than earthquakes. Manobalam vs Vacuum State. 'Nyana pasiyo edukindratu, katrallum kadavul kalvi allavo karkevendum. Naanar, en ullangalai, ennai ararivai. Amin....' and I came here for god!

When the goin get tough, the tough get goin...

Last words...

Dear sir, certainly it is ridiculous to say that im able to learn and know everything just by one day observation. But honestly, my experience in xxx field made me sensed some complexity here at xxx. Therefore I find it is my responsibilities to acknowledge my superiors regarding the unsystematic operation procedures and the complexity experienced by our xxx here. The quantity of xxx given varies by their orders everyday.

So, definitely we are not to expect to archive more xxx if there's only an average 10-15 per day. Also the numerous destinations and the distance covered has an impact for the second day operation. Of cource nothing is impossible. However if we are to follow the current system, I believe its not going to work for the long run.

I suggest the management to consider negotiate with xxx to allow us to use the new system I have introduced. Im sorry for any inconvenience caused and please understand that it is not my intention to find any fault of the company. Your decision and consideration will be a factor of my decision to continue my work here. Thank you.

Yours Sincerely,

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10am:

Know me, try to understand what I am.  Know me, then judge me. My innocences, is not my weakness. Im hiding my rage, for I will break your ego into a million pieces. I am not that which fits in your game. Know me, or I will break your core into million pieces.

6pm:

I could tell them, that I had always followed the wind on my face. But what goes to the winds if I couldnt feel the freedom? When living the values, one will meet mental obstacles. One should have strong determination to overcome it. Life does'nt ends here... New chapters to come...